Hi I'm S, I've been sh for a few months now. I've recently been shown back to sh. And I cut my arms almost everyday :/ everytime I say I'll stop, or I stopped to my friends who are going through the same (I'm here for you guys) I don't really stop. I swear I try to, but it's addicting. I cannot say at all that I deserve to say I cut... Bc my reasons wouldn't seem at all important to people. I mostly feel anxious around a lot of people, so I twitch, and get questions... And I hate that. Then I have to always be there for my friends- and they never care... They never care when I'm there... Or at least it seems like that. I recently went to my school therapist because someone in my class has been telling the teacher I've been wishing to die. And it was so awkward talking to her. I continuously pulled down my sweatshirt sleeves. And I don't know what to wear any more, people say I look emo, or are depressed... But I just need to cover up my cuts- I recently started moving down my right leg. Its hard to control it, when I constantly feel like it. The worst part-time ik I have people that are going through sh and I could talk to them... But I don't wanna bother them. And it's hard for me to trust people. Especially when one of the friends caught me and forced me to show my arms... Wouldn't leave me alone. I constantly ask people to be loved. And in that second they give it but then... They get caught with their other friends. My moms- isnt abusive or anything. But we don't have the perfect or barely good mother daughter relationship :/ she recently got a boyfriend and idk how to feel about that. Then I went to her friends house. And when we ate dinner there she put me on the spot...pulled up my sleeves a bit to show a few cuts. And I told her my friends just did that by accident. And everyone was looking at me :/ just scary. I tried so hard to quit... But every time I put my mind to it some things happens. I wish someone in class would notice when I'm down because I just... Just needed to be loved right then and there. I've decided (again) to stop. But I'm going to try super hard. I'm here if anybody would like to talk. Sc-@sourpoision_luv💞